
Day 11 – Yes be Yes
09/19/2009So is it coming? You know the ebb and flow of something new? I have been so excited about my new choices, blogging and even writing that I’m now waiting for the other shoe to drop. I’m waiting for the enthusiasm to wane. Will it happen on the next Wednesday weigh in? Will it happen on the ride home when I mindlessly pull into a drive-thru and order a double of everything? Justifying the purchase because I’m too tired to cook. Will it happen on a day that my last ounce of patience was used up by 10 am? Will it happen when I’m finally tempted by a perfectly baked corner piece brownie? In the past I was successful for a while but I would always lose steam and surrender to the temptation to just give in.
BUT NOT TODAY!
It was a working Saturday for me. This usually meant that I committed to something during the excitement of the new school year. In the past I would commit but then back out at the last moment. One thing I want to do within this venture is to be truthful to you and myself. Most of all I want my “Yes” be “Yes” and my “No” be “No.” (Matthew 5:37) Truthfulness is the key! No more lying to myself. So as this day approached I was tempted to just bail. Especially since it was going to be an incredible fall day. You know those crisp fall days where the sky is a crystal blue with big fluffy clouds and the trees a fiery yellow. I did not want to spend a day in a computer lab especially since I was going to get a nice lunch but no pay.
My new plan for my life got me to the school today. The whole sum of my decisions this past week made my early morning rather routine. I didn’t argue with myself or try to negotiate for a better deal, which would have been a day of me just relaxing in my chair. I prayed for a day of good decisions and a positive attitude.
I HAD SO MUCH FUN TODAY! Every lesson was geared right for what I needed for my students. The exchanged between colleagues was uplifting and informative. I guess like-minded people meet on Saturdays for a computer conference. But what I did notice was that following through with my plans for the day allowed me to follow through with my healthy choices. During the catered breakfast I chose a wonderful assortment of fruit and during lunch I was completely satisfied with bypassing the bread in the sandwich and adding everything to nice toss salad. The best part was that I also passed on the perfectly baked corner piece brownie. It had no ownership of me today. I was not tempted in the least. I made a plan and I stuck to it. In the past I would have went back for seconds and even squirreled a brownie away for the afternoon session. Great choices all day long even allowed me to enjoy a wonderful walk after the conference. The day was just as beautiful and I probably even enjoyed it more because of my accomplishments throughout the day.
Small victories are so important.
I had a lazy week last week, but am getting back on track this week. It DOES happens, but as long as you continue to make healthier choices and just try – well it makes a HUGE difference. 🙂
Hi Shelli,
When I first started my blog, I made that same commitment to honesty. I figured, if I was not honest with myself, why bother?!
One of the first people to temporarily take me under his encouraging wing til I was off an running was Sean. And one of the first things he said was that self-honesty and consistency was absolutely crucial to our success.
You are on the right track!
Loretta
Sean of The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser, is an incredible REAL writer. What an example. I appreciate him so much. He told me to keep it simple. Its the only way.
Awesome victory!!! Yay!!!! Cheering you on, and so excited about the little bits of progress, that add up to big changes over time.